Growing up I, being the oldest of 5, I was groomed to be in control at all times. But I was never taught how to HANDLE it. As an adult control freak was horrible for me. When I took of my superwoman cape, I learned how to be vulnerable to myself. Giving up rigid control was the best move for me!

I have never given up control. I need to know everything that’s going on. I’m very afraid of the unknown! The thought of it make me cringe.

I don’t have a need to control others, I have a need to feel in control of myself and my environment. The struggle is real! I am most proud of how far I’ve come in “Letting go and letting God” but the one area I have not had as much progress as I would like, is the terrible anxiety I experience whenever I am a passenger in a car. It is such an irrational out of control feeling. I drive myself everywhere I can but sometimes (like date night) I have no choice. The only thing I do to help myself along in those moments is to pray. As out of control as I feel, I still continue to try my best to talk and pray my way through instead of opting out. Reading what you ladies have shared inspires me to keep fighting the good fight.

With age, comes wisdom, and I thank GOD for having learned to release that control demon! The Holy Spirit revealed it to me in my OCD. So I had to release the control to heal from OCD. I have learned to trust tharr GOD’s got me and all things work together for my good. I may not know when I’m going through it, but afterward everything is apparent. And you will too now that you’ve realized the source, so have that🍹and keep it moving. And you DON’T have a deadline to unpack, remember how to eat an 🐘? One bite at a time!

I have a hard time letting control of my home duties and work duties. When I let go things go wrong or not done right.